I know that I haven't written anything in a long time on this but I am trying something new and I am writting it out before I post it. I have a few on teh ways. I will be posting something around the lines of my sorry for the past #1 umm a love poem for my g/f we will have been together for one year in october and as much as I love you guys on here she hears it first then you get to I don't have a name for it so I can't give you one. Anywayz like i said the reason you have to wait so long is because october is a little ways a way and the other is a work in progress and it is at 4 1/2 to 5 pages long and still growing. It is something I am writing not to hopefully clear my mind and make me feel better it is something I am writting because I feel it needs to be said seeing how soon i am going to be leaving those I have hurt and those who have hurt me and if the tone changes with in the poem I am sorry I have come to see that even though I was either right or partly write I have not controled my anger as I have thought so maybe that is one reason that I have driven my friends away. I will also be starting to work on poems pretty soon one for my youth pastor who just left I guess it was yesterday because of the time. He left at 6 or so to move to flordia. The reason why I will be writting one for him is because i want to show my thanks for he has been more than a youth pastor to me. He has been a brother, a father, and mentor, a best friend, a teacher, and a window to what the lord really is. I will truely miss him and wish that it didn't have to be but I know that the lord is calling him somewhere else and he will truely others lives and make them see the light and in the end that is all that truely matter and seeing how I am tired just got off work and can't seem to type write I have missed typed the word that many many many times, and it is telling me that if I have to type one word 9 times at least anywayz good night.